My dreams are usually unclear, but last night, it was kind of vivid. I remember that I was talking to one of my friends about something, and we were all dressed in formal. He then said something to me, and I suddenly got up and ran away from where I was. It was a long run; I ran through maybe two or three blocks, and finally stood in front of a house. On the way got into the house, I didn’t know how but I had a rose on my hand. When I passed through the swimming pool, I saw the one that I had been looking for, and I realized who she was.

I smiled to her and gave her the rose. Then I got down on my knee, said something to her and took out from my pocket the ring. She smiled back to me and offered her hand…

I woke up on my bed, and I saw my parents; they were there. They were happily talking to each other. “Maybe it’s just a dream” – I wondered myself, but at that time, the girl who I saw in my dream got in and said “Hi honey, you’re awake.”…

This was also the time when my alarm went off. I opened my eyes and looked around my room. There was only me here.

At this time, I kinda understand the meaning of love. It doesn’t like what I used to think it to be. Back to the time when I still was in high school, love was something that so fascinating; that you had to show off in front of him/her, and you felt shy and couldn’t find a word to talk to her. That was just a crushing feeling you had for a period of your life. No matter what, it still  was a wonderful time in one’s life, but it wasn’t love.

About a week ago, I talked to some of my friends – most are married, and they shared with me how they think about love. The common conclusion was that love is the secured feeling they found in their wife/ husband. They feel at ease every time they see each other; they accept the imperfect of each other, and the most important thing is they trust their companion (for life, of course).

Suddenly, a thought re-appears in my mind; a situation in which I have to choose between my life and my lover’s. It ’s really so hard (especially for me, the one who is unwilling to die in any circumstances). Maybe it dues to the fact that I’ve never truthfully loved anyone. It’s sad! That’s very sad!

That was just a short conversation, but I learned quite much…

Today is Hoa’s birthday (he’s my cousin), so we went out with his sister for dinner, and we decided to get in a Chinese restaurant. In there, I met a Chinese girl, and you don’t know man, she’s so damn beautiful (I should have bought a camera and had it with me every time and everywhere). Wtf, if she were Vietnamese, I would probably have asked her out (lol).

Summer time is getting closer, and Las Vegas trip is also getting nearer )

So this is the end of the spring break; it was great, and I had a lot of good time. Last Thursday, I went to Kelly park with some of my friends and set up a BBQ camp. We made a lot like usual (but I didn’t do much cause there were already somebodies being willing to do it . After that, we went to Q-cup for a drink. I thought everything would be ended there, but later on, some other guys asked me to go to the badminton training center, and well, I got on playing for a while. That was all for yesterday.

Today, we got on for another trip to Mystery spot in Santa Cruz. It was funny and weird dude. I also got back a souvenir, and then we headed to the beach. Time went on, and we decided to go to San Francisco.

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I went to the strip club today (lol) =))

In these days, I had so many up-coming tests, so I didn’t have much time to pay attention on my blog.

In these days, I found many great songs, some by searching on the internet, and some by being introduced by my friends. One of them is “I told you so”. Even though it was written long time ago, but it’s never seemed outdated. The melody and the lyric evoke the emotions deep inside your heart.

In these days, many people asked me if I had a girlfriend or not, and as usual I said “no”, then they looked at me and said “oh, poor you, you should have had a girlfriend.”

In these days, I was dragged on by works and studies, so I didn’t have time to think too much – at least until now.

It’s been a while, after the winter, the spring once again comes back from a long sleep. What a beautiful sight of the spring! Everything is changing! It was the first time I saw the blooming sakura, and the mountains are covered by the green of grass. Moreover, the rainbow appears after the rains make the scene far more fantasy.

I love the spring!

After 2 days couldn’t access to the internet, now I can do it again. It’s so good, and it looks like I’m getting a new life. I can’t live without internet; there was a uncomfortable feeling inside me; I concerned if anyone sent me emails, or some important things might happen and I couldn’t get it in the right time. It was very scary, wasn’t it? I tried everything, from unplugging to uninstalling everything, so I felt so sad when all my attempt went to waste. Suddenly a thought appeared on my mind; I tried to reset the internet router, and finally, my computer can access to the internet again. The thing is I could play game through the local area network via the router, but I couldn’t get to the internet, and my cousin can easily get to it. That’s why I didn’t think the problem was with the router.

It’s like you lose something that is precious to you. For a long time, you put all of  your mind, your soul into it, and in just a second, it disappears. It hurts, you know… it’s so painful. Yeah, I know I give it up with my will, but… Well, life moves on, everything moves on; it will surely find a way out. 

After attending 2 classes that I had enrolled this intersession, I decided to… drop them all =)). I’d never thought that Winter session could be so stressful.

It was funny that the first day I attended at the English 1A class, the instructor said the Winter session is only for professors who want to finish this class in a short time in order to get their bachelors ) That’s a reason, and the other one is her accent. As was noticed on ratemyprofessors, she talked with her Ukrinaian tone which is so hard to understand. 

Later yesterday, I went to the History class; the professor was so nice. However, I can’t study it in just one month. When I looked at the syllabus, I thought “What the heck is this!” =)) He demanded we read a chapter per day, and each chapter is about 20 pages. Not only that, we’re gonna have 4 essays in total – 2 take-home essays, and 2 in-class essays, and that I didn’t mention 10 quizzes and pop-quizzes of his :-ss.

So in the end, I quitted all =)) Now, in three weeks, I’ll focus on taking the driving license. I’m gonna have a car, I’m gonna have a car =))

Just look at the Mexican – American or British – American girls and you’ll know what I’m talking about. The way they make-up, the way they dress, their bodies and their faces – all of those make your heart skip a beat. I wonder if they are lost angels…