My dreams are usually unclear, but last night, it was kind of vivid. I remember that I was talking to one of my friends about something, and we were all dressed in formal. He then said something to me, and I suddenly got up and ran away from where I was. It was a long run; I ran through maybe two or three blocks, and finally stood in front of a house. On the way got into the house, I didn’t know how but I had a rose on my hand. When I passed through the swimming pool, I saw the one that I had been looking for, and I realized who she was.

I smiled to her and gave her the rose. Then I got down on my knee, said something to her and took out from my pocket the ring. She smiled back to me and offered her hand…

I woke up on my bed, and I saw my parents; they were there. They were happily talking to each other. “Maybe it’s just a dream” – I wondered myself, but at that time, the girl who I saw in my dream got in and said “Hi honey, you’re awake.”…

This was also the time when my alarm went off. I opened my eyes and looked around my room. There was only me here.

At this time, I kinda understand the meaning of love. It doesn’t like what I used to think it to be. Back to the time when I still was in high school, love was something that so fascinating; that you had to show off in front of him/her, and you felt shy and couldn’t find a word to talk to her. That was just a crushing feeling you had for a period of your life. No matter what, it still  was a wonderful time in one’s life, but it wasn’t love.

About a week ago, I talked to some of my friends – most are married, and they shared with me how they think about love. The common conclusion was that love is the secured feeling they found in their wife/ husband. They feel at ease every time they see each other; they accept the imperfect of each other, and the most important thing is they trust their companion (for life, of course).

Suddenly, a thought re-appears in my mind; a situation in which I have to choose between my life and my lover’s. It ’s really so hard (especially for me, the one who is unwilling to die in any circumstances). Maybe it dues to the fact that I’ve never truthfully loved anyone. It’s sad! That’s very sad!

That was just a short conversation, but I learned quite much…

Blackmore’s Night is so wonderful!!! It makes me live again, be out of the darkness of the night

I’ve been looking for this song for about a year, since I lost my CD. This is one of the coolest  songs I’ve ever heard. Even though it’s sad, it describes the feelings, the emotions of ones who are in despair. Close your eyes, listen to it and enjoy it

About a year ago, California passed the law that prohibited homosexual marriages because they thought those marriages were unnatural. Things were good since that day until these recent months. The minority – those gays and lesbians – sued the state for that law. They argued that that law abused them, and moreover, it was unconstitutional. The court lasted about a month or so, and then, it came to the final judgement. From now on, California will certificate homosexual marriages as real marriages which will be protected under the state law as well as federal law, until further instructions are given.

That’s so terrible. It reminds me about the old Sodom in Bible.

Today is Hoa’s birthday (he’s my cousin), so we went out with his sister for dinner, and we decided to get in a Chinese restaurant. In there, I met a Chinese girl, and you don’t know man, she’s so damn beautiful (I should have bought a camera and had it with me every time and everywhere). Wtf, if she were Vietnamese, I would probably have asked her out (lol).

Summer time is getting closer, and Las Vegas trip is also getting nearer )

So this is the end of the spring break; it was great, and I had a lot of good time. Last Thursday, I went to Kelly park with some of my friends and set up a BBQ camp. We made a lot like usual (but I didn’t do much cause there were already somebodies being willing to do it . After that, we went to Q-cup for a drink. I thought everything would be ended there, but later on, some other guys asked me to go to the badminton training center, and well, I got on playing for a while. That was all for yesterday.

Today, we got on for another trip to Mystery spot in Santa Cruz. It was funny and weird dude. I also got back a souvenir, and then we headed to the beach. Time went on, and we decided to go to San Francisco.

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I went to the strip club today (lol) =))

In these days, I had so many up-coming tests, so I didn’t have much time to pay attention on my blog.

In these days, I found many great songs, some by searching on the internet, and some by being introduced by my friends. One of them is “I told you so”. Even though it was written long time ago, but it’s never seemed outdated. The melody and the lyric evoke the emotions deep inside your heart.

In these days, many people asked me if I had a girlfriend or not, and as usual I said “no”, then they looked at me and said “oh, poor you, you should have had a girlfriend.”

In these days, I was dragged on by works and studies, so I didn’t have time to think too much – at least until now.

Take my photo off the wall
If it just won’t sing for you
‘Cause all that’s left has gone away
And there’s nothing there for you to prove

Oh, look what you’ve done
You’ve made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won

Give me back my point of view
‘Cause I just can’t think for you
I can hardly hear you say
What should I do, well you choose

Oh, look what you’ve done
You’ve made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won

Oh, look what you’ve done
You’ve made a fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
A fool of everyone

Take my photo off the wall
If it just won’t sing for you
‘Cause all that’s left has gone away
And there’s nothing there for you to do

Oh, look what you’ve done
You’ve made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won

Oh, look what you’ve done
You’ve made a fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
A fool of everyone

It’s been a while, after the winter, the spring once again comes back from a long sleep. What a beautiful sight of the spring! Everything is changing! It was the first time I saw the blooming sakura, and the mountains are covered by the green of grass. Moreover, the rainbow appears after the rains make the scene far more fantasy.

I love the spring!